Letting Go...

Years ago, when I was first practicing Science of Mind principles, I felt so elated that I finally began to "let go" of my past feelings of powerlessness in my life and shift into more grounded feelings of power and control. At last I was introduced to tools that assisted me in knowing that my thinking - when I aligned it with my greater good - would definitely show up in changed conditions in my life.

What a revelation! And how magnificently my life began to shift. Now, I was in control....or so I thought at the time.

Then, as I grew in consciously aligning myself with Spirit within me, I was introduced to the concept of "letting go" of the control I had just gained! This was so confusing and a little disheartening at the time. My spiritual teachers kept affirming that I would gain greater control over my experience of life once I let go of thinkiing I was controlling any part of it. Doesn't this sound paradoxical?
Well, it is....

There are many examples of paradox involved in spiritual evolution, but this is the one that keeps showing up in my life again and again. Maybe it is because I keep "letting go" and then taking it back!

At the present time, I am practicing again. In January, I applied for a position as pastor for a wonderful spiritual center. Serving in this community would be a phenomenal shared experience of growth and expanding love - both for me and, I believe, for the members of the congregation. My daily prayer is one of complete non-attachment to the outcome; my daily practice is simply trusting that the highest outcome for everyone is what will be revealed. So, I am very much attached to being fully engaged in the process...and yet completely detached from the outcome.

This is a narrow fence to walk, and I find myself letting go again and again and again.

Do any of you experience this in your own lives? If so, I encouirage you to just keep practicing.

Blessed Be...