Creating New Beliefs

Recently, I had the opportunity to communicate with someone I knew intimately 40 years ago. My experience with this person at that time was life-shattering, and eventually became the focus of the most profound forgiveness work I have ever done. I now believe it was the greatest gift I have ever received because it propelled me out of victimhood and showed me the power of true forgiveness.

However, when I received an e-mail from this person recently (after having no real contact for all these years), I was acutely aware of the sensations in my physical body. My stomach immediately began to clench and what appeared to be uncontrollable heightened awareness of possible danger took over; I was 29 again and my body was in protective mode.

All of this created in MY MIND by MEMORY.

As I have no new information or experience of this person in the present moment, I have nothing with which to create a new "memory" in my body. Yes, I can conjure up positive "pictures" of this person or I can make up new possibilities in my mind, but what I realized is that this would take a huge amount of energy and time - especially due to the depth of the psychic pain embedded within me.

So how to heal? How do I literally release my attachment to the old beliefs and replace them?

I proposed a personal meeting with this person so that I could replace - or actually create a new - mental equivalent, one which would override the one existing in me now. I feel it would assist me greatly in resolving this dilemna and speed up the healing process. Hopefully this will be possible prior to my leaving the country. Plus, I intend to begin immediate forgiveness work for myself and my role in creating this belief in the first place.

In many ways, my heart has been stuck for 40 years. It is way past time "to open the windows of my mind and let Spirit fly in and out." (Rumi) I will know when I have replaced the old beliefs with new ones when this person has "free passage through my mind."

Blessed be