My 70th Birthday

Yesterday, was my celebration of 70 years on this earth plane - and I am still wondering when all those years accumulated! I still feel about 25 inside, even tho the outer spacesuit has many more signs of gravity, I feel blessed to be in such good health and especially to have a mind that is alert and actively awake.

Yesterday, I went on a catamaran sunset cruise to Land's End - at the tip of Baja where the Pacific Ocean meets the Sea of Cortez. It was simply glorious. The weather, of course, was grand, the company wonderful, the food and music perfect and the views - especially getting so close to the famous Arch - were breathtaking. Once the boat reached the Pacific, the captain turned off the engines and put up the sails. Simply awesome...

(A part of me wants to work for the Chamber of Commerce and tell everyone I know to come and visit this beautiful area. To that end, I am now looking for either a new digital camera or a cell phone that takes pictures.)

Sometimes I wonder if my life is as special as I think it is - or if the majority of lives are full to the brim with living. As I review these past 70 years, they have flown by - even tho there certainly were years that seemed to be filled with chaos, pain, sadness and confusion (two that stand out are 1968 and 1978 - oh, and lest I forget 1990 - whew, what a year).

One event that stands out at the moment - probably the biggest, other than my sobriety - is my inner reconciliation with my 2nd husband and love of my life after 40 years. In my heart, this is a testament to all the inner spiritual work I have done over the years, and I feel so grateful. Just using this phrase seens contrite and not nearly big enough, deep enough or profound enough for how I feel - but it will just have to do for now. Feeling this love in the innermost recesses of my being has transformed everything - at least the way I look at life and at people now. I am much more accepting and my inner (and outer) judgments have all but disappeared (not completely, yet - but close).

This appears to be what my journey has been about, and even though it has taken all these years and all these experiences, I have a rich book in the making - quite possibly a movie too.
But no matter what, I have evolved into the woman I so wanted to be and my heart is overflowing with love.

Blessed be....