Good morning from Portland, Oregon...
I arrived almost a month ago and have had a major time adjusting to the coolness of the weather here. Even a sunny day when the temperature rises to 70, I keep waiting for it to get so much hotter - and, alas, it does not! Then, my friends want to stay out of the sun cause they are too hot - oh my!!!
The almost daily shifting in the sky of clouds, sun, shadow, fog, mist and/or rain is a constant delight, I must say - and can be quite distracting when driving. I actually have found myself stopping on the side of a road just to enjoy the view overhead. Lovely.
In many ways, coming back has been somewhat of a culture shock - especially grocery shopping. The first time I set foot in Safeway again, I audibly was saying to myself, "Oh - look at that" or "How fantastic" - or "How do I choose"!! It is not that we do not have supermarkets in Baja - we do, but the selection is so much more limited. I have been wanting to just go to New Seasons or Whole Foods and "hang-out" - like one would go to the movies. And then the discovery of gelato - specifically pistachio gelato at a local spot in Sellwood. It puts ice cream to shame....
Visiting with my family and friends has been grand, and I have discovered that my 96 year old step-mother does not have health insurance. So, I have appointed myself her advocate and am now researching possibilities to ease the huge - HUGE - pay-out for prescriptions each month. It is somewhat daunting.
When I am at home in Mexico, I swim almost every day - sometimes several times a day, as the pool is about 50 feet from my door. It has made a huge difference in how I feel physically. Honestly, I was somewhat apprehensive about coming to Oregon and putting my body back into this cool and more humid environment especially without my pool.
Then - along came 24-hr Fitness and built a facility just two blocks from where I am staying off of SE Holgate. Yeah. I will now be able to walk a short way and swim which will allow me to maintain my progress. Just have to determine the best times to go...
As I have lost a couple of clothing sizes, I am now on a quest to put on some pounds - along with my exercise. Desserts are the answer! And Papa Haydn (an excellent restaurant with a bountiful and beautiful and delicious dessert menu) is just a few blocks away. Remember that old poster: "Life is short - eat dessert first!" I agree!
It is also delightful and soul-warming to connect with my spiritual family on a regular basis. I do miss the music and the focus on positive shifting of consciousness that is shared in a community. Hopefully, I will be able to bring some of this uplifting and life-altering awareness to the new friends I am making in Mexico through classes and shared study. At least that is my current intention.
Since I desire a deeper and expanded spiritual focus in my life, I trust there are others where I live who desire the same. As Emma Curtis Hopkins teaches, "if I see a need, it is mine to fill." So I am....
Please stay tuned....I will return....
Remember,
You Are Loved In All Ways
Lynn
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Leaving for US
It has been quite sometime - over a month - since I last wrote. Oh my gosh how time just keeps moving so fast.
A friend came to visit a week ago and remarked on how fast the days seem to fly by even without doing much....so true!
I am preparing to fly to Portland for 2 1/2 months after being in Mexico for almost 9 months and there are lots of preparations to make, some of which perplex me. Like my car. What to do with it - where and how to store it, etc. Luckily, here, we have a fantastic internet-communication site where you can write in with questions. I did - and so many people responded with such excellent advice that I now feel confident about leaving my vehicle.
Then there is my cat. Do I take her or leave her? If I take her, the friend who I am staying with in Portland has 3 dogs - not a good idea to bring a cat. So, have found a friend here who is willing to have my cat stay with her which prevents me from boarding her for so long.
Then - the biggest issue - what clothes to bring! Portland is so much cooler than Baja and although I have coats stored there, I have no other things - like a bathrobe. Solution, used clothing stores! That way I can create a "winter" wardrobe to keep in Portland and have fun doing it at the same time.
Well, then again, the biggest issue will probably be in culture, and I am preparing myself now. Mexico is so much slower and not at all as serious about everything as the US can be (which is what I love about it) - so we will see what feelings pop up for me during this time.
If anyone is still reading this blog, and who may be interested, I am teaching the "Relationships: Being Real" class at the Portland Center for Spiritual Living starting in September. The cl is 7 weeks and is truly more than worth the $80 fee. I am excited about teaching it again and highly encourage people to register for it.
So, for now - I bid you farewell. My next note will come from Portland.
Blessings of love in all ways.
A friend came to visit a week ago and remarked on how fast the days seem to fly by even without doing much....so true!
I am preparing to fly to Portland for 2 1/2 months after being in Mexico for almost 9 months and there are lots of preparations to make, some of which perplex me. Like my car. What to do with it - where and how to store it, etc. Luckily, here, we have a fantastic internet-communication site where you can write in with questions. I did - and so many people responded with such excellent advice that I now feel confident about leaving my vehicle.
Then there is my cat. Do I take her or leave her? If I take her, the friend who I am staying with in Portland has 3 dogs - not a good idea to bring a cat. So, have found a friend here who is willing to have my cat stay with her which prevents me from boarding her for so long.
Then - the biggest issue - what clothes to bring! Portland is so much cooler than Baja and although I have coats stored there, I have no other things - like a bathrobe. Solution, used clothing stores! That way I can create a "winter" wardrobe to keep in Portland and have fun doing it at the same time.
Well, then again, the biggest issue will probably be in culture, and I am preparing myself now. Mexico is so much slower and not at all as serious about everything as the US can be (which is what I love about it) - so we will see what feelings pop up for me during this time.
If anyone is still reading this blog, and who may be interested, I am teaching the "Relationships: Being Real" class at the Portland Center for Spiritual Living starting in September. The cl is 7 weeks and is truly more than worth the $80 fee. I am excited about teaching it again and highly encourage people to register for it.
So, for now - I bid you farewell. My next note will come from Portland.
Blessings of love in all ways.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Relax, Let Go....aaaahhhh
For the past couple of weeks, I have watched myself become bound by fearful thoughts. What a disappointment I feel in myself on several levels, and what discoveries I have made in the process.
The situation: My car has California plates which were due to expire in May. When I was in mainland Mexico (once I received my annual visa card), an expiration date on a vehicle did not matter; here in Baja, it does. Many people have been detained by the Federal Police and either (1) asked for payment of a fine immediately in US funds (up to $500); or (2) have the car impounded. The reason "to check if the car has been stolen".
I sent in my payment to renew my plates but could not because I do not have insurance in the US (I have Mexican insurance). I could not get US insurance without an inspection of the car, which I would then have to drive back - which I am unwilling to do.
Enter South Dakota. In SD one does not need insurance to obtain car registration or plates or even live in SD. So I obtained SD plates and had them sent to a friend's in Portland, Oregon. He then sent them UPS to me here in Los Cabos. He sent them "next day" but Mexico does not have air freight - only truck, so it was impossible to get them here from Portland in 2 days - even tho my friend paid $70 for that kind of delivery.
I became fixated on UPS and their tracking system, and in the interim stopped driving from here to Cabo (that highway has Federal jurisdiction) because I was so fearful of being detained.
After the fact, now that the plates are on my car and I can drive anywhere, I realized just how vulnerable I had become, which kicked into high gear my need to control the delivery of the new plates, etc. Let go - have faith - were all wonderful phrases, but I in the midst of my fear, very impossible for me to choose.
So, what was my fear about? Being in a foreign country with very limited use of the language, uncertainty about my rights (if any) both as a temporary visitor and foreigner, the appearance of limited funds to pay a large fine, knowing only a couple of people here, how would I get around without a car, and on and on and on. It also spoke to my history of "doing everything myself" (in other words, attempting to control everything) and having to trust the "system" while recogniziing that here in Mexico a "system" really does not exist!!
So, now, I am back to deepening my spiritual practice, primarily by longer meditation along with prayer to shift my reliance back to Spirit, which I thought was firmly in place but this experience showed me just how much more work I really have to do.
Better go take a swim and relax a little more.
You are loved in all ways,
Lynn
The situation: My car has California plates which were due to expire in May. When I was in mainland Mexico (once I received my annual visa card), an expiration date on a vehicle did not matter; here in Baja, it does. Many people have been detained by the Federal Police and either (1) asked for payment of a fine immediately in US funds (up to $500); or (2) have the car impounded. The reason "to check if the car has been stolen".
I sent in my payment to renew my plates but could not because I do not have insurance in the US (I have Mexican insurance). I could not get US insurance without an inspection of the car, which I would then have to drive back - which I am unwilling to do.
Enter South Dakota. In SD one does not need insurance to obtain car registration or plates or even live in SD. So I obtained SD plates and had them sent to a friend's in Portland, Oregon. He then sent them UPS to me here in Los Cabos. He sent them "next day" but Mexico does not have air freight - only truck, so it was impossible to get them here from Portland in 2 days - even tho my friend paid $70 for that kind of delivery.
I became fixated on UPS and their tracking system, and in the interim stopped driving from here to Cabo (that highway has Federal jurisdiction) because I was so fearful of being detained.
After the fact, now that the plates are on my car and I can drive anywhere, I realized just how vulnerable I had become, which kicked into high gear my need to control the delivery of the new plates, etc. Let go - have faith - were all wonderful phrases, but I in the midst of my fear, very impossible for me to choose.
So, what was my fear about? Being in a foreign country with very limited use of the language, uncertainty about my rights (if any) both as a temporary visitor and foreigner, the appearance of limited funds to pay a large fine, knowing only a couple of people here, how would I get around without a car, and on and on and on. It also spoke to my history of "doing everything myself" (in other words, attempting to control everything) and having to trust the "system" while recogniziing that here in Mexico a "system" really does not exist!!
So, now, I am back to deepening my spiritual practice, primarily by longer meditation along with prayer to shift my reliance back to Spirit, which I thought was firmly in place but this experience showed me just how much more work I really have to do.
Better go take a swim and relax a little more.
You are loved in all ways,
Lynn
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Creative Juices
Yesterday, while in conversation with a close friend, I found myself becoming excited about the unlimited possibilities that exist for me here in this beautiful part of the planet. As I am "creating" the environment in my new 'casita', I find my mental activity focusing on beauty and color and texture and I see it everywhere here. Especially color - vivid and happy colors that make you perk up and take notice simply because....
That creativity has spilled over into my teaching and spiritual life as well. A date has been set for me to begin the first Science of Mind spiritual study group: the first Wednesday in July, which is July 7. Many people are away right now, but there are still a few people here - and all I need to start is a few. In fact, I may even start 2 groups - and do one on Sunday morning as well since many people don't go to church and it may be a perfect time to start a spiritually-focused community something, aka "Open Circle" in Ajijic.
Now my task will be to locate a space for the Sunday group - preferably something outside and free. A perfect space just popped into my mind - and I will have to investigate more fully. Oh my, God is so-o-o-o good!
Made the decision to offer my Relationship class here in November and also to teach it in the US while I am there - got to get myself back in the saddle again. I am also going to offer spiritual counseling to people through a networking group I have joined and think I may have a client already. It feels good, especially here, since I am feeling so much more comfortable about driving places. Even if I get lost, I can find my way back to a familiar spot pretty easily. I think that since I now have my own place to live and it is really in a very central location, I feel more comfortable as a whole. Even tho I have only been in Baja for about a month and a half, it really feels much like home - especially because I am breathing so much better and my body is filled with more energy and vitality.
This is astonishing in some ways for last week I walked up a very long and steep hill - only stopped a couple of times - and when I got to the top, I felt so elated that I had actually done it I sad down on a ledge to revel in the feeling. 6 months ago I had difficulty walking just 2 blocks up a gentle incline. Once again, elevation, medication and prayer!
So, once I am settled and have a spot to keep my computer set up most of the time, I will be writing in the blog on a more regular basis. Once again, thanks again for your diligence and patience in continuing to follow my thoughts - and my life. I am truly grateful.
You are loved in all ways,
Lynn
That creativity has spilled over into my teaching and spiritual life as well. A date has been set for me to begin the first Science of Mind spiritual study group: the first Wednesday in July, which is July 7. Many people are away right now, but there are still a few people here - and all I need to start is a few. In fact, I may even start 2 groups - and do one on Sunday morning as well since many people don't go to church and it may be a perfect time to start a spiritually-focused community something, aka "Open Circle" in Ajijic.
Now my task will be to locate a space for the Sunday group - preferably something outside and free. A perfect space just popped into my mind - and I will have to investigate more fully. Oh my, God is so-o-o-o good!
Made the decision to offer my Relationship class here in November and also to teach it in the US while I am there - got to get myself back in the saddle again. I am also going to offer spiritual counseling to people through a networking group I have joined and think I may have a client already. It feels good, especially here, since I am feeling so much more comfortable about driving places. Even if I get lost, I can find my way back to a familiar spot pretty easily. I think that since I now have my own place to live and it is really in a very central location, I feel more comfortable as a whole. Even tho I have only been in Baja for about a month and a half, it really feels much like home - especially because I am breathing so much better and my body is filled with more energy and vitality.
This is astonishing in some ways for last week I walked up a very long and steep hill - only stopped a couple of times - and when I got to the top, I felt so elated that I had actually done it I sad down on a ledge to revel in the feeling. 6 months ago I had difficulty walking just 2 blocks up a gentle incline. Once again, elevation, medication and prayer!
So, once I am settled and have a spot to keep my computer set up most of the time, I will be writing in the blog on a more regular basis. Once again, thanks again for your diligence and patience in continuing to follow my thoughts - and my life. I am truly grateful.
You are loved in all ways,
Lynn
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
New Casita
Yesterday was the first day in my new casita - a small, 1 bedroom in a 3 apt. house in San Jose del Cabo. I am delighted. It is very private and has a large patio area just off the living room where I plan to create an "outdoor living space" with large palms in containers, etc. I also have a small pool just around the corner to use every day; plus, access to the beach and restaurants at a large resort just down the hill. The view from the end of my street is spectacular as my house is built high on a hill overlooking the Sea of Cortez.
San Jose del Cabo is the oldest of the two 'Cabos' (I think the church in the town square dates to 1500 something) and is more quiet and less 'touristy' than Cabo San Lucas, which is about 30 miles to the South.
After almost a month in this lovely area, I am beginning to feel somewhat comfortable in finding my way around. All directions are given in terms of landmarks as opposed to addresses: there are no addresses! Although, the government just announced that all houses will now have assigned addresses, but since no mail is actually delivered, they will not be for any significant purpose except as ornamentation for lovely tile numbers. There are a few street names - but just major streets. If a side street does have a name, there is usually no sign anywhere to tell you what it is -which makes the use of landmarks essential for finding even a business.
Am meeting many wonderful Mexican women through my roommate - all educated, bright, lovely people - and know a couple of them will become good friends of mine over time. One I will be taking Spanish lessons from when I return from the US in November.
Am becoming much more clear about what kind of spiritual support I can bring to this area. As the outdoor patio at my apt is quite large, I am contemplating having a weekly Sangha or prayer-support group there for a few people to begin integrating the Science of Mind philosophy into this community. I also plan to go to a little town about 45 minutes north once each month and do a study group for people who live on the 'East Cape'. In the interim, I am getting to know my way around, finding the organic markets (which abound here - yeah), swimming each day (an essential part of my physical spiritual practice), meeting lovely people and beginning to form networks.
Life is good in the Baja and I am feeling wonderful.
You are loved in all ways,
Lynn
San Jose del Cabo is the oldest of the two 'Cabos' (I think the church in the town square dates to 1500 something) and is more quiet and less 'touristy' than Cabo San Lucas, which is about 30 miles to the South.
After almost a month in this lovely area, I am beginning to feel somewhat comfortable in finding my way around. All directions are given in terms of landmarks as opposed to addresses: there are no addresses! Although, the government just announced that all houses will now have assigned addresses, but since no mail is actually delivered, they will not be for any significant purpose except as ornamentation for lovely tile numbers. There are a few street names - but just major streets. If a side street does have a name, there is usually no sign anywhere to tell you what it is -which makes the use of landmarks essential for finding even a business.
Am meeting many wonderful Mexican women through my roommate - all educated, bright, lovely people - and know a couple of them will become good friends of mine over time. One I will be taking Spanish lessons from when I return from the US in November.
Am becoming much more clear about what kind of spiritual support I can bring to this area. As the outdoor patio at my apt is quite large, I am contemplating having a weekly Sangha or prayer-support group there for a few people to begin integrating the Science of Mind philosophy into this community. I also plan to go to a little town about 45 minutes north once each month and do a study group for people who live on the 'East Cape'. In the interim, I am getting to know my way around, finding the organic markets (which abound here - yeah), swimming each day (an essential part of my physical spiritual practice), meeting lovely people and beginning to form networks.
Life is good in the Baja and I am feeling wonderful.
You are loved in all ways,
Lynn
Sunday, May 16, 2010
My 70th Birthday
Yesterday, was my celebration of 70 years on this earth plane - and I am still wondering when all those years accumulated! I still feel about 25 inside, even tho the outer spacesuit has many more signs of gravity, I feel blessed to be in such good health and especially to have a mind that is alert and actively awake.
Yesterday, I went on a catamaran sunset cruise to Land's End - at the tip of Baja where the Pacific Ocean meets the Sea of Cortez. It was simply glorious. The weather, of course, was grand, the company wonderful, the food and music perfect and the views - especially getting so close to the famous Arch - were breathtaking. Once the boat reached the Pacific, the captain turned off the engines and put up the sails. Simply awesome...
(A part of me wants to work for the Chamber of Commerce and tell everyone I know to come and visit this beautiful area. To that end, I am now looking for either a new digital camera or a cell phone that takes pictures.)
Sometimes I wonder if my life is as special as I think it is - or if the majority of lives are full to the brim with living. As I review these past 70 years, they have flown by - even tho there certainly were years that seemed to be filled with chaos, pain, sadness and confusion (two that stand out are 1968 and 1978 - oh, and lest I forget 1990 - whew, what a year).
One event that stands out at the moment - probably the biggest, other than my sobriety - is my inner reconciliation with my 2nd husband and love of my life after 40 years. In my heart, this is a testament to all the inner spiritual work I have done over the years, and I feel so grateful. Just using this phrase seens contrite and not nearly big enough, deep enough or profound enough for how I feel - but it will just have to do for now. Feeling this love in the innermost recesses of my being has transformed everything - at least the way I look at life and at people now. I am much more accepting and my inner (and outer) judgments have all but disappeared (not completely, yet - but close).
This appears to be what my journey has been about, and even though it has taken all these years and all these experiences, I have a rich book in the making - quite possibly a movie too.
But no matter what, I have evolved into the woman I so wanted to be and my heart is overflowing with love.
Blessed be....
Yesterday, I went on a catamaran sunset cruise to Land's End - at the tip of Baja where the Pacific Ocean meets the Sea of Cortez. It was simply glorious. The weather, of course, was grand, the company wonderful, the food and music perfect and the views - especially getting so close to the famous Arch - were breathtaking. Once the boat reached the Pacific, the captain turned off the engines and put up the sails. Simply awesome...
(A part of me wants to work for the Chamber of Commerce and tell everyone I know to come and visit this beautiful area. To that end, I am now looking for either a new digital camera or a cell phone that takes pictures.)
Sometimes I wonder if my life is as special as I think it is - or if the majority of lives are full to the brim with living. As I review these past 70 years, they have flown by - even tho there certainly were years that seemed to be filled with chaos, pain, sadness and confusion (two that stand out are 1968 and 1978 - oh, and lest I forget 1990 - whew, what a year).
One event that stands out at the moment - probably the biggest, other than my sobriety - is my inner reconciliation with my 2nd husband and love of my life after 40 years. In my heart, this is a testament to all the inner spiritual work I have done over the years, and I feel so grateful. Just using this phrase seens contrite and not nearly big enough, deep enough or profound enough for how I feel - but it will just have to do for now. Feeling this love in the innermost recesses of my being has transformed everything - at least the way I look at life and at people now. I am much more accepting and my inner (and outer) judgments have all but disappeared (not completely, yet - but close).
This appears to be what my journey has been about, and even though it has taken all these years and all these experiences, I have a rich book in the making - quite possibly a movie too.
But no matter what, I have evolved into the woman I so wanted to be and my heart is overflowing with love.
Blessed be....
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
The Unfamiliar
As I look over my life, I realize that for most of it, I have been somewhat curious. Especially about new places, which has given me the opportunity to push the boundaries of my "safe and known" life experiences. I have finally accepted the fact that I desire to experience as much of life as I am able and to learn more about myself in the process.
Sometimes that learning is very, very uncomfortable as I allow myself to stretch into unfamiliar territory and push myself into doing things I have never done before. Then I get to watch myself - and listen to my inner voices as they either attempt to keep me from moving forward or support me as I tentatively do so. Fortunately, the encouraging voices usually win and, off I go exploring.
One aspect of this learning is that I have (finally) become comfortable in asing for help or assistance. People usually are more than willing to help - more than willing to share their experiences - more than willing to shine light ahead on the path. Such is the case here in Baja.
I am in the process of developing a sweet friendship with a woman who has lived here 12 years. She has been more than willing to share her experiences and knowledge of "how things work" here in Baja, Mexico - and I am deeply grateful. There is an ever-present undercurrent of apprehension for me as I learn about this country and its customs (and laws) since I do not speak enough Spanish to be able to communicate and thus feel somewhat vulnerable. That vulnerability (or inner tension) is a good thing for it means that I am stretching; the more I stretch, the more (I feel) I am growing.
Yesterday, for example, I purchased a new cell phone here at the TelCel store. My friend accompanied me and guided me through the process. There are no "plans" here; each phone comes with a certain number of "free" pesos and then you purchase additional minutes with a phone card. The additional minutes are then entered into your phone. So, the only decision one must make is which phone to purchase - which, for me, was pretty easy: simple. No camera; no extra bells and whistles. In addition, there are several ways to telephone someone here (not just their numbers - but the manner in which you dial those numbers).
The least expensive way to speak with someone is cell to cell. So, that is why so many people use cell phones. To call a land-line from a cell is more expensive (and vice-versa). One of the local bi-monthly publications has an entire article this month on how to use phones here in Mexico.
Once we have experienced something new, the next time is easy is it not? That is why when you ask someone how to do something they usually say, "Oh - it's easy", because for them it is - they know how!
So, I am - every day - telling myself that whatever I encounter today that is unfamiliar is going to be easy. I am mentally preparing my mind - and thus the rest of me - to be more relaxed and comfortable in these foreign surroundings.
How are you stretching yourself? Or, are you holding on to the past and what is already known or familiar?
Blessings of joy,
Lynn
Sometimes that learning is very, very uncomfortable as I allow myself to stretch into unfamiliar territory and push myself into doing things I have never done before. Then I get to watch myself - and listen to my inner voices as they either attempt to keep me from moving forward or support me as I tentatively do so. Fortunately, the encouraging voices usually win and, off I go exploring.
One aspect of this learning is that I have (finally) become comfortable in asing for help or assistance. People usually are more than willing to help - more than willing to share their experiences - more than willing to shine light ahead on the path. Such is the case here in Baja.
I am in the process of developing a sweet friendship with a woman who has lived here 12 years. She has been more than willing to share her experiences and knowledge of "how things work" here in Baja, Mexico - and I am deeply grateful. There is an ever-present undercurrent of apprehension for me as I learn about this country and its customs (and laws) since I do not speak enough Spanish to be able to communicate and thus feel somewhat vulnerable. That vulnerability (or inner tension) is a good thing for it means that I am stretching; the more I stretch, the more (I feel) I am growing.
Yesterday, for example, I purchased a new cell phone here at the TelCel store. My friend accompanied me and guided me through the process. There are no "plans" here; each phone comes with a certain number of "free" pesos and then you purchase additional minutes with a phone card. The additional minutes are then entered into your phone. So, the only decision one must make is which phone to purchase - which, for me, was pretty easy: simple. No camera; no extra bells and whistles. In addition, there are several ways to telephone someone here (not just their numbers - but the manner in which you dial those numbers).
The least expensive way to speak with someone is cell to cell. So, that is why so many people use cell phones. To call a land-line from a cell is more expensive (and vice-versa). One of the local bi-monthly publications has an entire article this month on how to use phones here in Mexico.
Once we have experienced something new, the next time is easy is it not? That is why when you ask someone how to do something they usually say, "Oh - it's easy", because for them it is - they know how!
So, I am - every day - telling myself that whatever I encounter today that is unfamiliar is going to be easy. I am mentally preparing my mind - and thus the rest of me - to be more relaxed and comfortable in these foreign surroundings.
How are you stretching yourself? Or, are you holding on to the past and what is already known or familiar?
Blessings of joy,
Lynn
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Bugs and Spiders
Yes - I firmly believe there is only ONE life and that Life is expressing in every form of life everywhere...AND, I must learn to be more comfortable with some of the forms, i.e., very large spiders (or spiders in general) and cockroaches!
Today, I found a cockroach (about 2" long) sitting at the foot of my bed! I stood frozen for several moments while I assessed my options. Screaming wasn't one of them, although now I wonder how come. It must have come in from the yard as I leave the sliding door open and just the screen separates outdoor life from my living space. Crushing it with my shoe I was sure would implant a crunching sound in my mind, whch I did not want. So, I found the broom and first knocked it off the bed, then chased it until I had secured it within the bristles and scooted it out the back door. It righted itself and ran for cover under some storage boxes.
What is it about these small creatures that makes a perfectly sane and normal woman squirm?
In some ways, I think it is sinply the fact that it crawls and moves pretty fast (as do the large tarntula spsiders in Mexico), and I fear them crawling on me as well. Knowing they do not transfer diseases to humans doesn't seem to help.
So, now I am feeling a bit more rational and benevolent toward then (several hours have elapsed) and am, once again, willing to acknowledge their "spiritual" nature - cause at their core, like all form, they are of God. And then I might engage God in a conversation that would go something like, "What were you thinking?"
Yes, it is my choice to live in this hot climate where such creatures abound - and yes, I am sure I will come to accept their presence as Divine. It iis just at this moment I feel a tad bit of resistance.
Blessings of love,
Lynn
Today, I found a cockroach (about 2" long) sitting at the foot of my bed! I stood frozen for several moments while I assessed my options. Screaming wasn't one of them, although now I wonder how come. It must have come in from the yard as I leave the sliding door open and just the screen separates outdoor life from my living space. Crushing it with my shoe I was sure would implant a crunching sound in my mind, whch I did not want. So, I found the broom and first knocked it off the bed, then chased it until I had secured it within the bristles and scooted it out the back door. It righted itself and ran for cover under some storage boxes.
What is it about these small creatures that makes a perfectly sane and normal woman squirm?
In some ways, I think it is sinply the fact that it crawls and moves pretty fast (as do the large tarntula spsiders in Mexico), and I fear them crawling on me as well. Knowing they do not transfer diseases to humans doesn't seem to help.
So, now I am feeling a bit more rational and benevolent toward then (several hours have elapsed) and am, once again, willing to acknowledge their "spiritual" nature - cause at their core, like all form, they are of God. And then I might engage God in a conversation that would go something like, "What were you thinking?"
Yes, it is my choice to live in this hot climate where such creatures abound - and yes, I am sure I will come to accept their presence as Divine. It iis just at this moment I feel a tad bit of resistance.
Blessings of love,
Lynn
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Discovering Cabo
Yesterday was a day of discovery. A new friend guided me as I drove up and down the side streets (away from the tourist path) of Cabo san Lucas. We then parked the car next to a lovely park and walked the same path. Yes - this is the Mexico that I so love. Activity everywhere (especially since yesterday was part of the 4 day holiday - Cinco de Mayo), shops, photo studios, small cantinas, children playing, various smells of meals being prepared, colors adorning the windows and doorways in rugs or clothing, etc. etc.
We stopped for lunch at Poncho's, a fairy well-known restaurant that has been in Cabo for many years. It was decorated in classic Mexican Hacienda style and was visually captivating. I could not say that about the food, which was less than okay, but our table outside provided much entertainment through the street activity and passers-by.
My friend pointed out the best Italian restaurants, the municipal offices, the place to get my photo taken for my annual visa permit, the famous "Cabo Wabo" bar, the best spots to park, where one can get a great massage,etc. as we walked one street after another.
By the time we parted at about 3:30pm, I was definitely ready to drive back home and take a short siesta.
Along the "corridor" (which is the highway down the hill from my home and which runs the 30 miles between San Jose and Cabo), the government is putting up tall street lights to help curtail the many accidents along this route. Yes, they are putting up lights - about 30 feet apart - along the entire length of this highway - about 30 miles! Astonishing - not to mention the cost to the local taxpayers for the electricity needed to run them. Most of the accidents are caused by drivers who pay no attention to the speed limits. Then I discovered that Mexican drivers have no instruction in driving - but simply "pay" for their driver's license! Amazing....
Today, I am traveling the 14 miles North to San Jose for more discoveries. It is definitely a learning process here in this amazing country...
Blessings of love,
Lynn
We stopped for lunch at Poncho's, a fairy well-known restaurant that has been in Cabo for many years. It was decorated in classic Mexican Hacienda style and was visually captivating. I could not say that about the food, which was less than okay, but our table outside provided much entertainment through the street activity and passers-by.
My friend pointed out the best Italian restaurants, the municipal offices, the place to get my photo taken for my annual visa permit, the famous "Cabo Wabo" bar, the best spots to park, where one can get a great massage,etc. as we walked one street after another.
By the time we parted at about 3:30pm, I was definitely ready to drive back home and take a short siesta.
Along the "corridor" (which is the highway down the hill from my home and which runs the 30 miles between San Jose and Cabo), the government is putting up tall street lights to help curtail the many accidents along this route. Yes, they are putting up lights - about 30 feet apart - along the entire length of this highway - about 30 miles! Astonishing - not to mention the cost to the local taxpayers for the electricity needed to run them. Most of the accidents are caused by drivers who pay no attention to the speed limits. Then I discovered that Mexican drivers have no instruction in driving - but simply "pay" for their driver's license! Amazing....
Today, I am traveling the 14 miles North to San Jose for more discoveries. It is definitely a learning process here in this amazing country...
Blessings of love,
Lynn
Friday, April 30, 2010
New Home in Baja
Hello from Baja...
It has been a couple of months since I have written and I am feeling 100% better. Primarily, because I have moved to a low elevation here in Baja, where the temperature is usually iabout 85 and the air crystal clear. Plus, it is visually gorgeous. I look out over the Sea of Cortez, and it dazzles me with shades of azure blue to turquoise all set next to white sandy beaches. It is a good thing that I love the desert, for it is so beautiful in its simplicity - and I so appreciate the diversity and age of the sturdy cactus, standing guard over the palms.
And then there are the flowers - oh my! As the air is so clear, the flowers appear even more vibrant; reds, oranges, yellows, pinks - WOW...
My new home sits on a hill, literally half way between San Jose del Cabo and Cabo San Lucas. I prefer going to San Jose as it is much less "touristy" and has the feel of mainland Mexico overall, even tho the pricing is still geared for the tourist - and many things are 3x what they cost in Ajijic - which is a bit shocking. A friend said Southern Baja feels more like a 51st state - just an extension of California. I look forward to exploring a little deeper and discovering those "out-of-the-way" spots. I did not move to Mexico to be among ex-pats and will begin taking Spanish lessons asap.
The Universe just keeps presenting me with wonderful opportunities to explore, learn and grow. Thank you for joining me on this journey of discovery.
You are loved,
Lynn
It has been a couple of months since I have written and I am feeling 100% better. Primarily, because I have moved to a low elevation here in Baja, where the temperature is usually iabout 85 and the air crystal clear. Plus, it is visually gorgeous. I look out over the Sea of Cortez, and it dazzles me with shades of azure blue to turquoise all set next to white sandy beaches. It is a good thing that I love the desert, for it is so beautiful in its simplicity - and I so appreciate the diversity and age of the sturdy cactus, standing guard over the palms.
And then there are the flowers - oh my! As the air is so clear, the flowers appear even more vibrant; reds, oranges, yellows, pinks - WOW...
My new home sits on a hill, literally half way between San Jose del Cabo and Cabo San Lucas. I prefer going to San Jose as it is much less "touristy" and has the feel of mainland Mexico overall, even tho the pricing is still geared for the tourist - and many things are 3x what they cost in Ajijic - which is a bit shocking. A friend said Southern Baja feels more like a 51st state - just an extension of California. I look forward to exploring a little deeper and discovering those "out-of-the-way" spots. I did not move to Mexico to be among ex-pats and will begin taking Spanish lessons asap.
The Universe just keeps presenting me with wonderful opportunities to explore, learn and grow. Thank you for joining me on this journey of discovery.
You are loved,
Lynn
Friday, February 19, 2010
Physical Well Being
Last Friday, Feb. 12, 2010, I began to feel the internal nudges of a "cold" coming to visit. I took my usual preventative measures, but on Saturday, I was not well at all. I had a deep caugh, chills, slight fever and had an extreme difficulty breathing. I went to bed and off and on welcomed a couple of friends who came with tonics and potients to help me, but I had such low energy it was challenging to even be present and listen. I was in bed for about 48 hours - not very concious of much - and off and on during Sunday had unbearable hallucinations that I could not get away from in my mind's eye. If I closed my eyes, it felt as if they were open and watching creative visual videos. I could not get away from them. Luckily there was no sound. (I have a new and profound sense of empathy for the mentally ill.)
Finally, on Monday, one of my friends took me to a recommended physician here in Ajijic. A man named Dr. Leon. He used a device to measure the oxygen in my blood and immediately said, "Oh my - you are really suffering". I was in love! My oxygen level was at 57% and he said he wanted it to be at 90%. He put me on oxygen and then gave me some kind of humidifier treatment and sent me for a chest x-ray. When I next saw him, he outlined an agressive system of treatment for which I was very grateful. But he, more than anything else, empathized with how I was feeling and saw me as a human being (not a cash machine). He gave me great information which told me I had been making decisions on where to live that were incorrect, given my physical challenges.
I should be living at sea level in a place where the temperature is warm to hot. Ajijic at 5,300+ feet is not the place for me - plus I have been cold since I have been here. He also does not want me to even drink beverages with ice and to keep myself warm. Period. So, I am researching now for a new place to move - but this will not take place for a few months. I am on antibiotics and several other medications and even now, do not feel 100% better - but am slowly moving in that direction.
I may not be writing on the blog for awhile as taking care of myself right now is my #1 priority. Thank you for reading and for checking-in with me now and again.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Finally, on Monday, one of my friends took me to a recommended physician here in Ajijic. A man named Dr. Leon. He used a device to measure the oxygen in my blood and immediately said, "Oh my - you are really suffering". I was in love! My oxygen level was at 57% and he said he wanted it to be at 90%. He put me on oxygen and then gave me some kind of humidifier treatment and sent me for a chest x-ray. When I next saw him, he outlined an agressive system of treatment for which I was very grateful. But he, more than anything else, empathized with how I was feeling and saw me as a human being (not a cash machine). He gave me great information which told me I had been making decisions on where to live that were incorrect, given my physical challenges.
I should be living at sea level in a place where the temperature is warm to hot. Ajijic at 5,300+ feet is not the place for me - plus I have been cold since I have been here. He also does not want me to even drink beverages with ice and to keep myself warm. Period. So, I am researching now for a new place to move - but this will not take place for a few months. I am on antibiotics and several other medications and even now, do not feel 100% better - but am slowly moving in that direction.
I may not be writing on the blog for awhile as taking care of myself right now is my #1 priority. Thank you for reading and for checking-in with me now and again.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Friday, February 12, 2010
Waiting
Wednesday, I read a lovely post on a website that encouraged its readers to "...wait for God's guidance." What an amazing concept to most of us who are so very comfortable with taking charge of our lives and 'making' life happen the way we think will make us happy. Oftentimes, this can involve wanting other people to do our bidding - or act in ways that affirm what we think is best for all concerned.
I am reminded of the Serenity Prayer: "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." The last line seems to be the one that trips me up, and I am certain I am not alone. Most of my life (and right now to a large degree) I like to be in control (or at least think I am in control) of what transpires on a day to day basis. What is interesting to me is how often I am so very 'unwise' in the choices and decisions I make that create an effect that immediately affects my serenity. Most often it involves other people - usually those closest to me - who simply will not conform to my idea of what I think they should or should not be doing!!
Again and again, I am reminded to simply wait - do nothing (especially in my mind) and trust that Spirit will handle everything just perfectly. And it always does - not just sometimes - but ALWAYS.
What is so difficult about waiting? What is it within me that thinks it is necessary for me to take action of some kind? I believe it is my deeply-rooted belief in separation from my source. That at some level, I really believe Spirit is not on my side; that somehow I am less than the beloved child that I (most of the time) know myself to be! Or that others are as well. I forget that each of us has a higher power guiding, directing, loving, protecting, providing for all that we will ever, ever need or desire.
Wait. Wait upon Spirit. Trust and know that all is well - no matter what appears in form; my job is to remember...to remember...to remember.
Blessed be,
Lynn
I am reminded of the Serenity Prayer: "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." The last line seems to be the one that trips me up, and I am certain I am not alone. Most of my life (and right now to a large degree) I like to be in control (or at least think I am in control) of what transpires on a day to day basis. What is interesting to me is how often I am so very 'unwise' in the choices and decisions I make that create an effect that immediately affects my serenity. Most often it involves other people - usually those closest to me - who simply will not conform to my idea of what I think they should or should not be doing!!
Again and again, I am reminded to simply wait - do nothing (especially in my mind) and trust that Spirit will handle everything just perfectly. And it always does - not just sometimes - but ALWAYS.
What is so difficult about waiting? What is it within me that thinks it is necessary for me to take action of some kind? I believe it is my deeply-rooted belief in separation from my source. That at some level, I really believe Spirit is not on my side; that somehow I am less than the beloved child that I (most of the time) know myself to be! Or that others are as well. I forget that each of us has a higher power guiding, directing, loving, protecting, providing for all that we will ever, ever need or desire.
Wait. Wait upon Spirit. Trust and know that all is well - no matter what appears in form; my job is to remember...to remember...to remember.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Idea to Practice
On Tuesdays, I have the privilege of facilitating a study group here in Ajijic. We have about 17 people who come on a regular basis, which is grand. We are studying one of the basic Science of Mind books by Ernest Holmes called, "Living the Science of Mind". It is one of my favorites due to its "relative" simplicity. We usually discuss concepts and ideas (principles) presented in the 2 or 3 pages of content covered in a specific chapter (sometimes the 'chapter' is only one page) and then break-out into smaller groups of 5 or 6 where questions about the reading are posed in relation to how the content applies in our own lives.
Having taught Science of Mind and Spirit for about 15 years, I am always amazed at how frequently someone comes to the group with the apparent inability to share personally even in a small group environment. As SOM tends to be quite intellectual in its structure, it is so easy to stay focused on the concepts and principles from a mental perspective. In other words, it is pretty common for people to understand what Ernest Holmes is saying and even agree with him - but that is where it can end.
Many people feel if they can readily conceptualize the principles with their brain - that they automatically 'live' them in their lives. So not true. Making the shift from idea to practice is a huge leap for most people. It is safer to theorize; it is more comfortable to espouse understanding; it is quite another to explore the inner self and learn what prevents the heart from opening to a deeper level of trust, faith, or acceptance.
As we are a place through which Spirit expresses, and as we are made up of nothing but pure Spirit, all of our existence is designed to demonstrate various aspects of the Divine. If we are unwilling to delve below the surface - if we are unwilling to look deeper than what appears in form before our eyes, we miss out on the utter joy of life itself. It is like going to a movie and watching the visible screen but not hearing the sound.
When we take even tiny steps to open our hearts into the amazing life that expresses in us, as us and through us, we are enriched beyond our wildest imagination. Creating a daily spiritual practice that includes a few minutes of silent meditation or quiet contemplation - even just 15 minutes - can assist us in releasing the fear that blocks our connecting with ourselves and loving who we are no matter what.
We are literally whole, perfect and complete (from a spiritual perspective) right now! Nothing to add - nothing to take away. Take that first step and open your heart to yourself. You will be amazed at how fantastic you actually are....
Blessed be,
Lynn
Having taught Science of Mind and Spirit for about 15 years, I am always amazed at how frequently someone comes to the group with the apparent inability to share personally even in a small group environment. As SOM tends to be quite intellectual in its structure, it is so easy to stay focused on the concepts and principles from a mental perspective. In other words, it is pretty common for people to understand what Ernest Holmes is saying and even agree with him - but that is where it can end.
Many people feel if they can readily conceptualize the principles with their brain - that they automatically 'live' them in their lives. So not true. Making the shift from idea to practice is a huge leap for most people. It is safer to theorize; it is more comfortable to espouse understanding; it is quite another to explore the inner self and learn what prevents the heart from opening to a deeper level of trust, faith, or acceptance.
As we are a place through which Spirit expresses, and as we are made up of nothing but pure Spirit, all of our existence is designed to demonstrate various aspects of the Divine. If we are unwilling to delve below the surface - if we are unwilling to look deeper than what appears in form before our eyes, we miss out on the utter joy of life itself. It is like going to a movie and watching the visible screen but not hearing the sound.
When we take even tiny steps to open our hearts into the amazing life that expresses in us, as us and through us, we are enriched beyond our wildest imagination. Creating a daily spiritual practice that includes a few minutes of silent meditation or quiet contemplation - even just 15 minutes - can assist us in releasing the fear that blocks our connecting with ourselves and loving who we are no matter what.
We are literally whole, perfect and complete (from a spiritual perspective) right now! Nothing to add - nothing to take away. Take that first step and open your heart to yourself. You will be amazed at how fantastic you actually are....
Blessed be,
Lynn
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Tonola & Tlaquepaque
Thursday, some friends and I took a private tour of some of the workshops in Tonola, Mexico - a suburb of Guadalajara. It is a hub of Mexican artisans and some of the finest craftsman in the entire country come from this town. Oh my, what a delight and if you are a shopper; it would take days to cover all the shops and factories.
Our first stop was to a tiny (and I really mean tiny) one room workshop where one of the most famous potters in all of Mexico creates his award-winning masterpieces. His name is Salvador Vazquez Carmona. If you would like to learn more about him and the specific style of pottery he makes, I encourage you to google his name.
One of the things I thought astounding was the "paint" is mixed from pounding into powder various colored rocks from areas all around Guadalajara and then adding water. So, there is nothing that can dissolve, melt, or discolor as everything is made from clay. The polishing is also amazing and is done with a crystal type of stone - quite time consuming - but again no glaze of any kind. The kiln is fired with real wood (not gas) and is simply a small fireplace-type design in one corner of this room. He has passed the technique on to his family, but it is not taught to outsiders. Simply gorgeous and each peace tells a story. Very old world.
We also went to a glass-blowing factory where maybe 30 men or young boys were in the process of producing stunning designs. All glass is from recycled material - as long as it is clear. Then they introduce their own color during the melting process. The glass from this region is known and much sought after all over the world.
We then drove a few miles to the town of Tlaquepaque. It is a high-end gorgeous town of upscale restaurants and shops (ala Rodeo Drive in LA or Carmel in California). No graffiti on these walls! The shops were converted mansions that the Spanish built in the 1400's when they would move their families out of the center of Guadalajara to the "hills" overlooking the city for the summer vacations. They would literally move the whole house - pianos, furniture, paintings, everything. The homes (now shops) are simply breathtaking in their magnitude and architecture, replete with 20' mahagony doors, marble walkways, gigantic inner gardens, etc.
I could have moved into any one of them.
We had lunch in a beautiful "villa". The food was delicious and served graciously in the inner courtyard, replete with ficus trees 20 feet talk, stone walkways, etc. I really felt I was dining in Italy or Spain - not in the heart of Mexico.
All in all this was a trip so worth taking, and I am delighted to know I can now drive to either of these places in about an hour. Definitely on my personal "tour" when friends come to visit.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Our first stop was to a tiny (and I really mean tiny) one room workshop where one of the most famous potters in all of Mexico creates his award-winning masterpieces. His name is Salvador Vazquez Carmona. If you would like to learn more about him and the specific style of pottery he makes, I encourage you to google his name.
One of the things I thought astounding was the "paint" is mixed from pounding into powder various colored rocks from areas all around Guadalajara and then adding water. So, there is nothing that can dissolve, melt, or discolor as everything is made from clay. The polishing is also amazing and is done with a crystal type of stone - quite time consuming - but again no glaze of any kind. The kiln is fired with real wood (not gas) and is simply a small fireplace-type design in one corner of this room. He has passed the technique on to his family, but it is not taught to outsiders. Simply gorgeous and each peace tells a story. Very old world.
We also went to a glass-blowing factory where maybe 30 men or young boys were in the process of producing stunning designs. All glass is from recycled material - as long as it is clear. Then they introduce their own color during the melting process. The glass from this region is known and much sought after all over the world.
We then drove a few miles to the town of Tlaquepaque. It is a high-end gorgeous town of upscale restaurants and shops (ala Rodeo Drive in LA or Carmel in California). No graffiti on these walls! The shops were converted mansions that the Spanish built in the 1400's when they would move their families out of the center of Guadalajara to the "hills" overlooking the city for the summer vacations. They would literally move the whole house - pianos, furniture, paintings, everything. The homes (now shops) are simply breathtaking in their magnitude and architecture, replete with 20' mahagony doors, marble walkways, gigantic inner gardens, etc.
I could have moved into any one of them.
We had lunch in a beautiful "villa". The food was delicious and served graciously in the inner courtyard, replete with ficus trees 20 feet talk, stone walkways, etc. I really felt I was dining in Italy or Spain - not in the heart of Mexico.
All in all this was a trip so worth taking, and I am delighted to know I can now drive to either of these places in about an hour. Definitely on my personal "tour" when friends come to visit.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Saturday, January 30, 2010
What is Love?
What is love? Yes, that question has been posed since humans have come together...and do we have a definitive answer? In some ways, I think I have evolved into at least accepting and understanding some aspects of what love really is - the Truth of Love, so to speak, at least with regard to my experience of it - especially during these last few months. Here is what I feel is true in my heart right now:
Love is always present. Yes, I believe it is always, always a force - a power - a presence enveloping us in every way - if we but pay attention.
Love is free. Meaning that it cannot be bound, hoarded, owned, bartered (I will love you if you do this or don't do that), or contained.
Love is unconditional. It has no strings - does not require certain behavior in order to be felt or experienced, nor does it "disappear" upon demand, request, etc. It is not turned on or off at will - I believe it is always "on".
Love is more powerful than fear. When fear is present, adding more love will dissolve the fear.
Love is generous. We have the capacity to love and love and love lots and lots of people, cause I believe we are literally love. When we think we can "own" love in the form of a person (i.e., I can only love my husband, my wife), I believe we are actually in fear. ( Yes, I do feel this is true from my own experience.)
Love is kind. Love does not hurt. Period!
Love is patient. Love will wait for the perfect opportunity to make itself realized and does not force itself upon anyone.
Love is accepting. Again, love is "loving what is" as Byron Katie so beautifully states.
Love is fulfilling. Love completes itself. There is no "other" - it is the all in all.
Love is what each one of us is at our core. We are the expression of love, if we but allow ourselves to accept, receive and give away that which we are.
Today, I am loving my courage to have walked this sacred journey into love with my heart open wide. I am feeling so blessed by the fulfillment of an intention I set one year ago which was to be a being of love - to be an expressino of love and to know love with all my heart and soul. Each morning for about a year during my morning spiritual practice, my prayer-bead mantra has been: "There is One Life; That Life is God's Life; That Life is Perfect Love; That Life is My Life Now". In the sacredness of this moment, I believe I am literally experiencing love so fully that I am overcome with gratitude.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Love is always present. Yes, I believe it is always, always a force - a power - a presence enveloping us in every way - if we but pay attention.
Love is free. Meaning that it cannot be bound, hoarded, owned, bartered (I will love you if you do this or don't do that), or contained.
Love is unconditional. It has no strings - does not require certain behavior in order to be felt or experienced, nor does it "disappear" upon demand, request, etc. It is not turned on or off at will - I believe it is always "on".
Love is more powerful than fear. When fear is present, adding more love will dissolve the fear.
Love is generous. We have the capacity to love and love and love lots and lots of people, cause I believe we are literally love. When we think we can "own" love in the form of a person (i.e., I can only love my husband, my wife), I believe we are actually in fear. ( Yes, I do feel this is true from my own experience.)
Love is kind. Love does not hurt. Period!
Love is patient. Love will wait for the perfect opportunity to make itself realized and does not force itself upon anyone.
Love is accepting. Again, love is "loving what is" as Byron Katie so beautifully states.
Love is fulfilling. Love completes itself. There is no "other" - it is the all in all.
Love is what each one of us is at our core. We are the expression of love, if we but allow ourselves to accept, receive and give away that which we are.
Today, I am loving my courage to have walked this sacred journey into love with my heart open wide. I am feeling so blessed by the fulfillment of an intention I set one year ago which was to be a being of love - to be an expressino of love and to know love with all my heart and soul. Each morning for about a year during my morning spiritual practice, my prayer-bead mantra has been: "There is One Life; That Life is God's Life; That Life is Perfect Love; That Life is My Life Now". In the sacredness of this moment, I believe I am literally experiencing love so fully that I am overcome with gratitude.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Suffering
In the Buddhist tradition, suffering is created by attachment. Attachment to the way things turn out - attachment to the way we want people to be - attachment to our ways of thinking that do not support us - attachment to having "our own way", etc. etc. etc.
It seems we are confronted with this idea of being attached to just about everything in our lives! Does it not appear to be the way of being human? At least in our Western materialistic culture, I believe it is almost encoded into our DNA. In observing children, at about age 2 the word "mine" becomes a consistant mantra. Many of have failed to move on after we have learned that word!
When I am especially attached to an outcome of some particular experience - in other words, when I want what I want when I want it - and then it doesn't happen, I experience upset (or suffering). The idea of staying open to, and accepting, life "on life's terms" (meaning what is) appears to be a big challenge for most of us. I have struggled with it over the years and have come to understand that I have an easier time with some things than others. In other words, there are 'degrees' to my levels of attachment.
So when I bump into one of those places that is more difficult than others, I pray for the willingness to let go. I pray for my heart to stay centered in the place of love where life is for me (all of life) and not against me in any way. I pray for my mind to let go of its attachment to whatever it is I am so convinced is what is necessary for my highest good. (I really have come to realize that I have no clue what that is!!!) I pray for the willingness to let go of control. And, if I can even begin to do one of those things, I suffer less.
In counseling many people over the years, I have learned that most people do not really know what they want at all. Most of us know what we do not want - and that is usually not to be uncomfortable in any way, or inconvenienced, or challenged by life. We wish everyone else would just do what we decide is best and our life would be grand. But would it? I really think not, for it appears that we simply do not grow without struggle, conflict or suffering of some kind. This appears to be part of simply being human. So, the more aware we are of our internal strugging - the more we challenge our attachment to outcome - the more we are free, which translates to more loving, more kindness, more peacefulness.
Yes, life always supports our highest good and suffering appears to be one stepping stone on our journey of awakening.
Blessed be,
Lynn
It seems we are confronted with this idea of being attached to just about everything in our lives! Does it not appear to be the way of being human? At least in our Western materialistic culture, I believe it is almost encoded into our DNA. In observing children, at about age 2 the word "mine" becomes a consistant mantra. Many of have failed to move on after we have learned that word!
When I am especially attached to an outcome of some particular experience - in other words, when I want what I want when I want it - and then it doesn't happen, I experience upset (or suffering). The idea of staying open to, and accepting, life "on life's terms" (meaning what is) appears to be a big challenge for most of us. I have struggled with it over the years and have come to understand that I have an easier time with some things than others. In other words, there are 'degrees' to my levels of attachment.
So when I bump into one of those places that is more difficult than others, I pray for the willingness to let go. I pray for my heart to stay centered in the place of love where life is for me (all of life) and not against me in any way. I pray for my mind to let go of its attachment to whatever it is I am so convinced is what is necessary for my highest good. (I really have come to realize that I have no clue what that is!!!) I pray for the willingness to let go of control. And, if I can even begin to do one of those things, I suffer less.
In counseling many people over the years, I have learned that most people do not really know what they want at all. Most of us know what we do not want - and that is usually not to be uncomfortable in any way, or inconvenienced, or challenged by life. We wish everyone else would just do what we decide is best and our life would be grand. But would it? I really think not, for it appears that we simply do not grow without struggle, conflict or suffering of some kind. This appears to be part of simply being human. So, the more aware we are of our internal strugging - the more we challenge our attachment to outcome - the more we are free, which translates to more loving, more kindness, more peacefulness.
Yes, life always supports our highest good and suffering appears to be one stepping stone on our journey of awakening.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Perception - again
I have written about perception before, but it revealed itself to me once again in another amazing way.
Do you have siblings? If you do, when you get together to remember your upbringing, do you each have a different view of the same circumstances? This is true in my family, and from what I have discovered in discussing this with others, it is a very common experience. We each bring to our experiences who we are - internally. We each bring our own fears, imaginings, fantasies, phobias, beliefs, opinions, etc. established long before in our very young years.
So whatever is going on in the present moment, is influenced by all that has gone on before and colors the lens through which we "see" reality.
A few days ago, I had such an experience. An intimate partner whom I was with over 40 years ago and I have been communicating with the intention of healing some of the woundedness from that time and being present now. (Or, at least that is my intentio). What we have discovered is that we both had the same perception: that we were not loved by the other! Oh my...At that time, I felt so insecure and fearful (of just about everything) that I simply could not believe anyone loved me - period. So, this belief was projected out from me in behavior that "proved" my belief. My friend evidently was doing the same thing.
Could we have shifted our perceptions? Probably, but we were so young and so very wounded ourselves, we had no tools with which to shift to another viewpoint. But, now we do. Now, we have (or at least I have) a deeper understanding of what motivates me and a deep desire to experience my life as a loving and kind and caring person - beginning with myself. I believe I now have a heart that is free and fearless when it comes to loving - both myself and another - and I am willing to stay curious; I am willing to ask questions to gain clarity - as opposed to staying silent for fear of "offending". Questions shift perceptions as they shed light on beliefs, opinions and "made-up stuff" that we each seem to continually create in our own minds.
Perceptions keep us separate unless we open to delving deeper - going underneath the surface where our True Self resides. This is where the furtile soil of connection lies - where dreams and relationships thrive. Let the air in and begin to ask questions; become curious and dissolve some of those worn-out perceptions.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Do you have siblings? If you do, when you get together to remember your upbringing, do you each have a different view of the same circumstances? This is true in my family, and from what I have discovered in discussing this with others, it is a very common experience. We each bring to our experiences who we are - internally. We each bring our own fears, imaginings, fantasies, phobias, beliefs, opinions, etc. established long before in our very young years.
So whatever is going on in the present moment, is influenced by all that has gone on before and colors the lens through which we "see" reality.
A few days ago, I had such an experience. An intimate partner whom I was with over 40 years ago and I have been communicating with the intention of healing some of the woundedness from that time and being present now. (Or, at least that is my intentio). What we have discovered is that we both had the same perception: that we were not loved by the other! Oh my...At that time, I felt so insecure and fearful (of just about everything) that I simply could not believe anyone loved me - period. So, this belief was projected out from me in behavior that "proved" my belief. My friend evidently was doing the same thing.
Could we have shifted our perceptions? Probably, but we were so young and so very wounded ourselves, we had no tools with which to shift to another viewpoint. But, now we do. Now, we have (or at least I have) a deeper understanding of what motivates me and a deep desire to experience my life as a loving and kind and caring person - beginning with myself. I believe I now have a heart that is free and fearless when it comes to loving - both myself and another - and I am willing to stay curious; I am willing to ask questions to gain clarity - as opposed to staying silent for fear of "offending". Questions shift perceptions as they shed light on beliefs, opinions and "made-up stuff" that we each seem to continually create in our own minds.
Perceptions keep us separate unless we open to delving deeper - going underneath the surface where our True Self resides. This is where the furtile soil of connection lies - where dreams and relationships thrive. Let the air in and begin to ask questions; become curious and dissolve some of those worn-out perceptions.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Glorious
Several years ago, I wrote a lengthy poem entitled, "Glorious " and then created a small booklet with images and photographs, sayings and icons that depicted the various phrases and stanzas of the poem. I would like to share it with you this morning...as the view from my home in Mexico is just that - glorious overlooking this amazing and (today) calm lake.
GLORIOUS
Dawn embraces the meadow
with rays of illumined knowing;
cracks penetrate the cave of bondage
as Hope struggles to remember.
REALITY OR ILLUSION.
Tentative the heart that knows only fear.
Feelings deadened by years of
forced forgetfulness suddenly connect
with inner Truth. Wake up!
Vision soars in ribbons of clarity
loud as thunder.
GLORIOUS THE VIEW.
Eyes wide as willingness points to new
avenues where the search for self -
and SELF - ensues.
Wrapped in love, enveloped in good.
Faith wins!
Drop the mask of separateness.
ALL IS ONE.
Always present...Whole...Complete.
Spirit within embracing all...as All...
through All.
Essence of life and love,
unnamable and infinite.
Divine inspiration gilded by
sacred thought.
I AM THAT I AM.
Passion fuels internal unification
as wholeness heals separation.
Truth revealed when Nature
joins spiritual beings in
celebration of beauty and perfection.
WE ARE ONE.
Blowing distant echoes into
God's knowing womb;
yesterday's memories fade with
soft kisses wrapped in joy
knowing NOW is all.
Union complete in love's sweet moment;
Angels sound the call of
SURRENDER.
You are More than my BELOVED;
You are More than my JOY;
You are More than my HEART;
You are More than my LIFE;
YOU ARE MY VERY SOUL.
Blessed be,
Lynn
GLORIOUS
Dawn embraces the meadow
with rays of illumined knowing;
cracks penetrate the cave of bondage
as Hope struggles to remember.
REALITY OR ILLUSION.
Tentative the heart that knows only fear.
Feelings deadened by years of
forced forgetfulness suddenly connect
with inner Truth. Wake up!
Vision soars in ribbons of clarity
loud as thunder.
GLORIOUS THE VIEW.
Eyes wide as willingness points to new
avenues where the search for self -
and SELF - ensues.
Wrapped in love, enveloped in good.
Faith wins!
Drop the mask of separateness.
ALL IS ONE.
Always present...Whole...Complete.
Spirit within embracing all...as All...
through All.
Essence of life and love,
unnamable and infinite.
Divine inspiration gilded by
sacred thought.
I AM THAT I AM.
Passion fuels internal unification
as wholeness heals separation.
Truth revealed when Nature
joins spiritual beings in
celebration of beauty and perfection.
WE ARE ONE.
Blowing distant echoes into
God's knowing womb;
yesterday's memories fade with
soft kisses wrapped in joy
knowing NOW is all.
Union complete in love's sweet moment;
Angels sound the call of
SURRENDER.
You are More than my BELOVED;
You are More than my JOY;
You are More than my HEART;
You are More than my LIFE;
YOU ARE MY VERY SOUL.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Good or Negative Thoughts
Last night a friend asked me what the difference was between a "good" thought and a "negative thought" in relation to its effectiveness in manifesting. This question was prompted by the reading of the first chapter of a book called, "Living the Science of Mind" by Ernest Holmes in which he outlines the basic philosophy of this teaching. I am facilitating a weekly study group of this book which began yesterday. Most of the students attending have never heard of this philosophy and are seeking ways to anchor some kind of spiritual practice in their lives.
As this was the first day and the first chapter in a lengthy book, Ernest Holmes does not really answer the question directly. He is giving a simple overview of this teaching and how it works in our daily lives. This book is a compilation of various works by Holmes along with transcriptions of various lectures he gave over the years.
As this philosophy is not necessarily a "religion" in the classical definition (we do not worship anything), what it is has to do with is the idea that all of creation is energy and is creating itself 0ut of that energy - initiated by some movement in "thought" or "consciousness". It is a way of thinking that shifts the actual pathways of the brain (over time and with much practice) to create greater and greater peace, joy, love, harmony, beauty and creativity in the world. It enriches or enhances whatever spiritual journey a person may already be engaged in - or even if one is not walking a spiritual path, it enriches the day-to-day experience of living.
It is not easy; simple - but definitely not easy.
So back to my friends question. I believe that Ernest Holmes would say that "good" thinking promotes wholeness and life and aligns itself with unlimited qualities that exist everywhere and all the time (love, beauty, peace, power, light, abundance, joy) and that "negative" thinking is just the opposite and is likely based upon fear or separation from life in some way.
Her question specifically related to a group of people engaged in activities promoting preservation of the planet who all seem to have various "opinions" about how action should proceed - and many of them appearing "negative". She wanted to know which were "right" - and the answer is that all of them are right. There is no "wrong" way of thinking - only ways of thinking that manifest an undesired outcome. As that occurs, a new thought is then introduced whch can create a totally different outcome.
As things - ALL THINGS - begin first as a thought, then it follows to create different "things" (experiences, etc), it is absolutely necessary to think different thoughts.
Musings on a 75 degree day from Mexico....
Love,
Lynn
As this was the first day and the first chapter in a lengthy book, Ernest Holmes does not really answer the question directly. He is giving a simple overview of this teaching and how it works in our daily lives. This book is a compilation of various works by Holmes along with transcriptions of various lectures he gave over the years.
As this philosophy is not necessarily a "religion" in the classical definition (we do not worship anything), what it is has to do with is the idea that all of creation is energy and is creating itself 0ut of that energy - initiated by some movement in "thought" or "consciousness". It is a way of thinking that shifts the actual pathways of the brain (over time and with much practice) to create greater and greater peace, joy, love, harmony, beauty and creativity in the world. It enriches or enhances whatever spiritual journey a person may already be engaged in - or even if one is not walking a spiritual path, it enriches the day-to-day experience of living.
It is not easy; simple - but definitely not easy.
So back to my friends question. I believe that Ernest Holmes would say that "good" thinking promotes wholeness and life and aligns itself with unlimited qualities that exist everywhere and all the time (love, beauty, peace, power, light, abundance, joy) and that "negative" thinking is just the opposite and is likely based upon fear or separation from life in some way.
Her question specifically related to a group of people engaged in activities promoting preservation of the planet who all seem to have various "opinions" about how action should proceed - and many of them appearing "negative". She wanted to know which were "right" - and the answer is that all of them are right. There is no "wrong" way of thinking - only ways of thinking that manifest an undesired outcome. As that occurs, a new thought is then introduced whch can create a totally different outcome.
As things - ALL THINGS - begin first as a thought, then it follows to create different "things" (experiences, etc), it is absolutely necessary to think different thoughts.
Musings on a 75 degree day from Mexico....
Love,
Lynn
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Good and More Good
There is an affirmation that I have used over the years that I received from an old book. It goes like this: "Good and more good is mine. An ever-increasing good is mine. There is no limit to the good that is mine. I accept this good now." I think there is more to it, but this is the way I remember and the way I use it.
If I accept that the entire Universe is engaged in supporting me - if I believe that the Universe, the energy of life is unified in its desire to express more life or more good - then I feel comfortable and safe no matter what is happening on this Earth plane for I am at home everywhere.. I am a part of life itself and not separated from anyone or anything. It is the feeling of separation that brings sadness or disquiet to my heart and to my experience.
When I feel separate from the goodness that life is - when I feel separate from the life that is flowing through me (and through you), then I become fearful. At some level, I believe that life is somehow against me and ultimately, you are against me - so I do not feel safe to be me and begin to create barriers within my own heart so I won't be hurt.
Again and again, I must bring my conscious awareness back to my deepest desire and that is to be a loving, accepting and kind human being - especially to myself. As Howard Thurman said, "I want to be more loving in my heart - not just have the idea of loving." This is sometimes my challenge with folks who push my buttons (of course, this is where I need to look more closely and ask how did the button get created in the first place...). Again, it comes back to a feeling of separation. Somehow my ego gets all bent out of shape, fear sets in and then I automatically surround myself with barb wire and protective layers to keep me safe!
Safe from what? I am always safe if I but remember who I am. Remembering is key...
Oh my....good and more good is mine. Yes, good is being experienced all the time. My life is good and each experience I have reminds me even more fully how unified and connected I am to this good. Remember e is my word for today....how about you?
Blessed be,
Lynn
If I accept that the entire Universe is engaged in supporting me - if I believe that the Universe, the energy of life is unified in its desire to express more life or more good - then I feel comfortable and safe no matter what is happening on this Earth plane for I am at home everywhere.. I am a part of life itself and not separated from anyone or anything. It is the feeling of separation that brings sadness or disquiet to my heart and to my experience.
When I feel separate from the goodness that life is - when I feel separate from the life that is flowing through me (and through you), then I become fearful. At some level, I believe that life is somehow against me and ultimately, you are against me - so I do not feel safe to be me and begin to create barriers within my own heart so I won't be hurt.
Again and again, I must bring my conscious awareness back to my deepest desire and that is to be a loving, accepting and kind human being - especially to myself. As Howard Thurman said, "I want to be more loving in my heart - not just have the idea of loving." This is sometimes my challenge with folks who push my buttons (of course, this is where I need to look more closely and ask how did the button get created in the first place...). Again, it comes back to a feeling of separation. Somehow my ego gets all bent out of shape, fear sets in and then I automatically surround myself with barb wire and protective layers to keep me safe!
Safe from what? I am always safe if I but remember who I am. Remembering is key...
Oh my....good and more good is mine. Yes, good is being experienced all the time. My life is good and each experience I have reminds me even more fully how unified and connected I am to this good. Remember e is my word for today....how about you?
Blessed be,
Lynn
Monday, January 18, 2010
Intentions
This past Saturday, I facilitated a workshop on setting Intentions for 2010. Many of the participants were surprised that it was not about goal-setting or making "resolutions" - pleasantly surprised. The focus of this workshop (or "funshop" as a friend called it), was to determine (through thoughtful and inward contemplation) how we intended to show up this next year. In other words, who did we come here to be rather than what have we come here to get!
We then created a visual board with pictures and words to remind us of our intentions.
For sometime now, it has become apparent to me that my reason for being in this particular incarnation is to learn how to love. Yes, I did say learn. Love has been so "out of my reach" for most of my life. It has been something I read about, observed in other people, saw depicted in movies or on tv, but was not something that was readily apparent in my own experience of life. I was not taught love, nor was it modeled in my growing up by the people around me.
From the age of about 3 or 4, due to circumstances in my family, it was clear I was not wanted by my parents. Of course, I had no understanding of what this was about until years later - but it had a profound effect on how I thought about myself. My belief about myself was that I was unacceptable and unlovable. Much of the remainder of my life provided "evidence" to support this belief....until recently (last year) when I set the conscious intention to "be" a person who loved.
I wanted to feel love; I wanted to be love; I wanted to "get" love (kind of like getting a puppy); I wanted to absolutely know that I was loved to shatter my childhood belief about myself.
So, I began to "practice" loving unconditionally. Loving people who were "hard" to love. Loving myself when I forgot and was "unloving". It became the focus of my life. I longed to break the pattern. (George W. Bush was my biggest hurdle for several years!). For the last several months, I have been in communication with my second husband who also happens to be the "love of my life." Our relationship was tenuous 40 years ago and I have written about it before, so will not repeat that information. It has been my current intention to show up with him as I truly want to be - from my highest self - and not simply react based upon our past association. I wanted to release all fear and open my heart completely (or as best as I could)...so I consciosly shfted my focus about and to him and have been blessed beyond my wildest imaginings.
And, now, it has happened.
For the very first time - yes, the very first time - I feel loved. I actually FEEL (all through my physical body) an internal awareness of comfort, sweetness, acceptance, joy, beauty, peace and grace. Oh my God...I do not have words sufficient to express this experience. And, use of the word now has an entirely new meaning for me. It is so much bigger - so much more inclusive - so much more alive - so much more.....
THANK YOU LIFE and THANK YOU LOVE..
Blessed be,
Lynn
We then created a visual board with pictures and words to remind us of our intentions.
For sometime now, it has become apparent to me that my reason for being in this particular incarnation is to learn how to love. Yes, I did say learn. Love has been so "out of my reach" for most of my life. It has been something I read about, observed in other people, saw depicted in movies or on tv, but was not something that was readily apparent in my own experience of life. I was not taught love, nor was it modeled in my growing up by the people around me.
From the age of about 3 or 4, due to circumstances in my family, it was clear I was not wanted by my parents. Of course, I had no understanding of what this was about until years later - but it had a profound effect on how I thought about myself. My belief about myself was that I was unacceptable and unlovable. Much of the remainder of my life provided "evidence" to support this belief....until recently (last year) when I set the conscious intention to "be" a person who loved.
I wanted to feel love; I wanted to be love; I wanted to "get" love (kind of like getting a puppy); I wanted to absolutely know that I was loved to shatter my childhood belief about myself.
So, I began to "practice" loving unconditionally. Loving people who were "hard" to love. Loving myself when I forgot and was "unloving". It became the focus of my life. I longed to break the pattern. (George W. Bush was my biggest hurdle for several years!). For the last several months, I have been in communication with my second husband who also happens to be the "love of my life." Our relationship was tenuous 40 years ago and I have written about it before, so will not repeat that information. It has been my current intention to show up with him as I truly want to be - from my highest self - and not simply react based upon our past association. I wanted to release all fear and open my heart completely (or as best as I could)...so I consciosly shfted my focus about and to him and have been blessed beyond my wildest imaginings.
And, now, it has happened.
For the very first time - yes, the very first time - I feel loved. I actually FEEL (all through my physical body) an internal awareness of comfort, sweetness, acceptance, joy, beauty, peace and grace. Oh my God...I do not have words sufficient to express this experience. And, use of the word now has an entirely new meaning for me. It is so much bigger - so much more inclusive - so much more alive - so much more.....
THANK YOU LIFE and THANK YOU LOVE..
Blessed be,
Lynn
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Present Moment Living
What does it really mean to live in the present moment? Can any one of us truly do this? Are we not so influenced by our past experiences that each moment is somewhat guided by that influence?
It seems that if I was to live completely in this moment, my thoughts, feelings and actions would be experiencing what was happening now - except that they will have been guided by my thoughts, feelings and actions from the past! Spiritual writers and guides (including myself) encourage living in the present moment - hence the title of this website. But, is that really possible. When I contemplate this more deeply, I really do not think it is totally possible. Yes, I can bring my awareness to my breath and consciously experience my breathing and the life within me from one breath to the next - but very quickly, my mind begins to "have its way with me."
Quite possibly dedicated monks and mystics who live a cloistered life of prayer and meditation on a day-to-day basis have the ability to actually live in the present moment. I would like to have the opportunity to discuss this possibility in depth with one such monk or mystic at some future date - but here again, I am moving away from this moment!
Yesterday, I received an e-mail from someone I knew many, many years ago informing me that it was not possible for him to continue including me on his Facebook as a friend (plus a couple of other ways he intended to "fade away" from any visible association with me). In one way, I completely understand this action as it is in alignment with his past (quite distant past) behavior. However, it may also be in alignment with possible new intentions he has set for himself in this current phase of his life. What is my reaction or response to this new information? Varied.
After sitting with my initial disappointment, I had to ask myself what was the disappointment about? I guess I really want the past to stay in the past and for my friend to "see me" as I am now - or to see "us" as "we" are now, without our history influencing current behavior. Is that at all possible? I am unsure. So, I took it to prayer and what revealed itself to me was maybe my friend needed to know that I have forgiven him and released any blame from our time together. I don't know if this is true, but I will contemplate this idea and possibly convey this to my friend.
I so want love, rather than fear, to guide my actions. AND, I do know that love always wins.
Blessed be,
Lynn
It seems that if I was to live completely in this moment, my thoughts, feelings and actions would be experiencing what was happening now - except that they will have been guided by my thoughts, feelings and actions from the past! Spiritual writers and guides (including myself) encourage living in the present moment - hence the title of this website. But, is that really possible. When I contemplate this more deeply, I really do not think it is totally possible. Yes, I can bring my awareness to my breath and consciously experience my breathing and the life within me from one breath to the next - but very quickly, my mind begins to "have its way with me."
Quite possibly dedicated monks and mystics who live a cloistered life of prayer and meditation on a day-to-day basis have the ability to actually live in the present moment. I would like to have the opportunity to discuss this possibility in depth with one such monk or mystic at some future date - but here again, I am moving away from this moment!
Yesterday, I received an e-mail from someone I knew many, many years ago informing me that it was not possible for him to continue including me on his Facebook as a friend (plus a couple of other ways he intended to "fade away" from any visible association with me). In one way, I completely understand this action as it is in alignment with his past (quite distant past) behavior. However, it may also be in alignment with possible new intentions he has set for himself in this current phase of his life. What is my reaction or response to this new information? Varied.
After sitting with my initial disappointment, I had to ask myself what was the disappointment about? I guess I really want the past to stay in the past and for my friend to "see me" as I am now - or to see "us" as "we" are now, without our history influencing current behavior. Is that at all possible? I am unsure. So, I took it to prayer and what revealed itself to me was maybe my friend needed to know that I have forgiven him and released any blame from our time together. I don't know if this is true, but I will contemplate this idea and possibly convey this to my friend.
I so want love, rather than fear, to guide my actions. AND, I do know that love always wins.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Walking In Time
Yesterday, I had the opportunity to share a small, hand-held photograph album of my first marriage with some new friends. One of them exclaimed, "Oh my - you look exactly the same!" This was such a surprise to hear as these photos reflected a time when I was 49 years younger. Has time and living all these years truly not had that much of an effect on my body? Certainly, my internal life - especially over these last 20 years - has calmed and been more conscious of living with intention and purpose; but the frame containing my Spirit has received little focused attention.
One reason, I am convinced, is that I have literally always believed that my body is healthy and have affirmed this in my mind as an underlying belief that simply is the Truth. I have always had a good relationship with my body and appreciate it. I think it is quite lovely and am grateful for how it has supported me so well. For years, I was in the clothing business and have felt grateful that I can wear pretty much whatever I want and they look good and feel great on me. My body is a joy to experience.
I feel especially grateful that I have not had to "work" at staying in a weight-range that supports my frame, nor have I been overly-engaged in exercise, etc. I am also grateful that I have been able to eat pretty much anything I like (and I do), which is grand since eating is a passion in many ways - especially really good food well prepared.
So - what makes this so? Genes? Belief? Swimming daily as a child for 7 consistent years?
A part of me believes that swimming all those years - each day from the time I was about 7 until about 14 - has a huge impact on my body today. In some way, I believe I was training my cells to "remember" how powerful and graceful and responsive they actually are, and that this "training" has remained part of the anchor sustaining my body all these years. Is this factual? Don't know - and am not attached to a definitive answer. What I do know is that I am grateful and feel blessed to experience life through my body in such a blissful way.
Thank you life.
Blessed be,
Lynn
One reason, I am convinced, is that I have literally always believed that my body is healthy and have affirmed this in my mind as an underlying belief that simply is the Truth. I have always had a good relationship with my body and appreciate it. I think it is quite lovely and am grateful for how it has supported me so well. For years, I was in the clothing business and have felt grateful that I can wear pretty much whatever I want and they look good and feel great on me. My body is a joy to experience.
I feel especially grateful that I have not had to "work" at staying in a weight-range that supports my frame, nor have I been overly-engaged in exercise, etc. I am also grateful that I have been able to eat pretty much anything I like (and I do), which is grand since eating is a passion in many ways - especially really good food well prepared.
So - what makes this so? Genes? Belief? Swimming daily as a child for 7 consistent years?
A part of me believes that swimming all those years - each day from the time I was about 7 until about 14 - has a huge impact on my body today. In some way, I believe I was training my cells to "remember" how powerful and graceful and responsive they actually are, and that this "training" has remained part of the anchor sustaining my body all these years. Is this factual? Don't know - and am not attached to a definitive answer. What I do know is that I am grateful and feel blessed to experience life through my body in such a blissful way.
Thank you life.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Creating 2010 Intentions
Next Saturday I will be facilitating a workshop to create Intentions for 2010. This is a wonderful way to begin any new year or project. Intentions differ from "resolutions" in that they are generated from that place within that is Spirit-led - as opposed to setting a "goal" and then using our human will-power to "make" it happen. Most of my life, when I have set resolutions at the new year, they have become a distant memory (and hard to recall) after less than a month.
Intentions take us into the flow of life. They allow us to work within the natural framework of our inner being...that part of us that is continuously supporting our higher Self and our greater good. Resolutions sometimes have felt to me to be in opposition to my natural state of being, and I think this may be the reason they never rooted deeply enough in my own consciousness to manifest.
I believe we set intentions much of the time in a very unconscious way. As I listen to my inner dialogue, I pay attention to what messages are continuously present in my mind. These are anchoring some desire, some need, some want that I have into the Mind of Spirit...and eventually will bear fruit. Recently, I experienced such a revelation.
For the longest time (probably most of my life), I have acquiessed to the needs, wants and desires of the people closest to me. In the latter years, I have told myself that I am "accepting" of behavior (when I actually wasn't) - or, I have told myelf that what I wanted or desired was "not that important" - to just let it go...it's "not that big a deal", etc. etc. What I have recently discovered is that I have been engaging in a form of (what a dear friend recently labeled) "solf-self-abuse"! At first, I rejected the label immediately. I was the product of major abuse in my life and certainly knew what abuse was...and what I was doing was definitely not that. Or was it?
Upon deep contemplation and much inner reflection, I have come to believe that indeed this is what I have bveen doing. When I fail to make my needs, desires, preferences or wants known to another (especially th0se close to me out of my deep fear of rejection), I am telling myself that I AM NOT WORTHY...that I am not valuable enough or important enough; not the action or outcome - but ME.
A this writing, I believe this AHA is the revealing of a deep inner intention that I set many years ago to express and live from my Higher Self. If I am unwilling to take full responsibility for me (and that means speaking up and actually taking ownership of my wants, desires, etc.), then I am not living from my Higher Self - I am only playing "make believe".
This revelation is a huge one for me and I intend to seek guidance as to how to proceed to give voice to what has been revealed. One action I am willing to take, however, is to stop - right now - remaining silent when my life depends upon speaking up.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Intentions take us into the flow of life. They allow us to work within the natural framework of our inner being...that part of us that is continuously supporting our higher Self and our greater good. Resolutions sometimes have felt to me to be in opposition to my natural state of being, and I think this may be the reason they never rooted deeply enough in my own consciousness to manifest.
I believe we set intentions much of the time in a very unconscious way. As I listen to my inner dialogue, I pay attention to what messages are continuously present in my mind. These are anchoring some desire, some need, some want that I have into the Mind of Spirit...and eventually will bear fruit. Recently, I experienced such a revelation.
For the longest time (probably most of my life), I have acquiessed to the needs, wants and desires of the people closest to me. In the latter years, I have told myself that I am "accepting" of behavior (when I actually wasn't) - or, I have told myelf that what I wanted or desired was "not that important" - to just let it go...it's "not that big a deal", etc. etc. What I have recently discovered is that I have been engaging in a form of (what a dear friend recently labeled) "solf-self-abuse"! At first, I rejected the label immediately. I was the product of major abuse in my life and certainly knew what abuse was...and what I was doing was definitely not that. Or was it?
Upon deep contemplation and much inner reflection, I have come to believe that indeed this is what I have bveen doing. When I fail to make my needs, desires, preferences or wants known to another (especially th0se close to me out of my deep fear of rejection), I am telling myself that I AM NOT WORTHY...that I am not valuable enough or important enough; not the action or outcome - but ME.
A this writing, I believe this AHA is the revealing of a deep inner intention that I set many years ago to express and live from my Higher Self. If I am unwilling to take full responsibility for me (and that means speaking up and actually taking ownership of my wants, desires, etc.), then I am not living from my Higher Self - I am only playing "make believe".
This revelation is a huge one for me and I intend to seek guidance as to how to proceed to give voice to what has been revealed. One action I am willing to take, however, is to stop - right now - remaining silent when my life depends upon speaking up.
Blessed be,
Lynn
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Evolving Stories
Yesterday, I had the wonderful opportunity to receive a phone call from a dear friend who was sitting at the ocean's edge preparing to launch 3 "ships" off to sea in honor of the goddess (unsure of just which one). She had created the ships the previous evening out of waxed paper. Each was decorated with a different sprinkling of glitter iin colors of red, blue and purple - the goddess likes purple and glitter. Inside each one, she had placed tokens or momentos which would appeal to the goddess - small reading books, poems, perfume (sprinkled on cotton balls so as not to pollute the ocean!), bracelets or other jewelry, etc. Oh how I wished I had been there to share in the ceremony and encourage the little ships on their journey. Who knows, one may eventually show up on the beach in Puerto Vallarta!
Creativity and its expression - so multi-layered and extensive. I am always in awe of my friend's creative gene. She appears to be a never-ending example of how Spirit expresses through life and through our humanness.
I am firmly convinced that this creativity gene is very near the surface of my friend's consciousness. Was she always this way? Was she encouraged as a child to express herself in such amazing ways? I must ask her...but in any event, I believe that each of us has this gene - each of us has the ability to sing, or dance, or draw, or write, or.....fill in the blank...from the moment we are born. What derails its expression through us is the stories we have repeatedly told ourselves over the years, beginning from our first breath.
Have your personal stories evolved over your lifetime into a fuller expression of who you truly are? Have you allowed yourself to grow and expand your own self-talk to one of encouraging "you can do it" messages? From my own experience, I had to give myself conscious permission to embrace and practice my creativity - and then to accept whatever I had then created as being good! This was, perhaps, the most difficult part - not to compare what it was I had created with an accomplished or acknowledged artist.
Over time, however, I have sufficiently shifted my internal story. I also have accepted that my creative gene is continuously evolving and thus, the stories I tell myself must evolve as well.
How about this year of 2010 you encourage your own creative gene to grow in whatever ways feel good to you? I promise it will be a fun experience for you and those around you.
You are loved in all ways,
Lynn
Creativity and its expression - so multi-layered and extensive. I am always in awe of my friend's creative gene. She appears to be a never-ending example of how Spirit expresses through life and through our humanness.
I am firmly convinced that this creativity gene is very near the surface of my friend's consciousness. Was she always this way? Was she encouraged as a child to express herself in such amazing ways? I must ask her...but in any event, I believe that each of us has this gene - each of us has the ability to sing, or dance, or draw, or write, or.....fill in the blank...from the moment we are born. What derails its expression through us is the stories we have repeatedly told ourselves over the years, beginning from our first breath.
Have your personal stories evolved over your lifetime into a fuller expression of who you truly are? Have you allowed yourself to grow and expand your own self-talk to one of encouraging "you can do it" messages? From my own experience, I had to give myself conscious permission to embrace and practice my creativity - and then to accept whatever I had then created as being good! This was, perhaps, the most difficult part - not to compare what it was I had created with an accomplished or acknowledged artist.
Over time, however, I have sufficiently shifted my internal story. I also have accepted that my creative gene is continuously evolving and thus, the stories I tell myself must evolve as well.
How about this year of 2010 you encourage your own creative gene to grow in whatever ways feel good to you? I promise it will be a fun experience for you and those around you.
You are loved in all ways,
Lynn
Friday, January 1, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Hola Dear Friends,
The first decade of the 21st century has passed. What astonishing news that seems to be for me as it seems just yesterday many of us were concerned that our computers would not work as we turned the clock to the year 2000! And, look how we began this decade - politically, we were pretty peaceful and definitely more solvent; economically, most of us were doing well; consciousness was growing around the climate changes that we needed to shift; and on and on.
For me, I had just graduated from the Holmes Institute and was newly licensed as a minsiter. I felt excited and hopeful about the future and was exceedingly grateful to be contemplating ideas for my spiritual community and the ways I would be serving Spirit in my new capacity as a spiritual leader. At the time, I had not a clue as to the profound impact this new role would have upon my life or the internal changes that would be required of me to serve at this higher level. Oh my!!!
Sometimes I think that 10 years is a long time. It is actually very short. Really just a blip on the radar of ones existence.
As I contemplate the next 10 years, as I reflect upon how I want to experience this upcoming decade, I find I must move even deeper into my inner contemplative self - actually my inner Higher SELF. I must still my outer - and oh so chatter-driven mind - and FEEL what wants to be born within me; what wants to be expressed or experienced through me. Where I am lving right now is a grand spot with which to begin this process - and I believe it is more of a process than an actual decision. I believe it is an emergent awareness that surfaces when I am still enough to pay attention - when I am available to "hear" its call.
My home sits next to this amazing lake. 60 miles long and roughly 30 miles across. It is large enough to have its own varied expressions, depending upon the wind and the weather, and is constantly changing. My view across the lake is of a higher mountain called Mt. Garcia (I think), and it too reveals it's own varied expressions. The lake supports hundreds of cranes, along with ducks, birds, etc. but the cranes are especially wondrous to observe. They are beautiful and graceful and still and powerful and contemplative and....
So each day, I have made it a daily practice to sit next to the lake and observe it through my own stillness. To meditate and open my heart and mind to accept the deeper awareness coming to and through me in the softness of this energy. Allowing myself to be - to simply be - and to pay attention to the inner voice gently whispering through my heart.
Life is good and you are loved.
Blessed be,
Lynn
The first decade of the 21st century has passed. What astonishing news that seems to be for me as it seems just yesterday many of us were concerned that our computers would not work as we turned the clock to the year 2000! And, look how we began this decade - politically, we were pretty peaceful and definitely more solvent; economically, most of us were doing well; consciousness was growing around the climate changes that we needed to shift; and on and on.
For me, I had just graduated from the Holmes Institute and was newly licensed as a minsiter. I felt excited and hopeful about the future and was exceedingly grateful to be contemplating ideas for my spiritual community and the ways I would be serving Spirit in my new capacity as a spiritual leader. At the time, I had not a clue as to the profound impact this new role would have upon my life or the internal changes that would be required of me to serve at this higher level. Oh my!!!
Sometimes I think that 10 years is a long time. It is actually very short. Really just a blip on the radar of ones existence.
As I contemplate the next 10 years, as I reflect upon how I want to experience this upcoming decade, I find I must move even deeper into my inner contemplative self - actually my inner Higher SELF. I must still my outer - and oh so chatter-driven mind - and FEEL what wants to be born within me; what wants to be expressed or experienced through me. Where I am lving right now is a grand spot with which to begin this process - and I believe it is more of a process than an actual decision. I believe it is an emergent awareness that surfaces when I am still enough to pay attention - when I am available to "hear" its call.
My home sits next to this amazing lake. 60 miles long and roughly 30 miles across. It is large enough to have its own varied expressions, depending upon the wind and the weather, and is constantly changing. My view across the lake is of a higher mountain called Mt. Garcia (I think), and it too reveals it's own varied expressions. The lake supports hundreds of cranes, along with ducks, birds, etc. but the cranes are especially wondrous to observe. They are beautiful and graceful and still and powerful and contemplative and....
So each day, I have made it a daily practice to sit next to the lake and observe it through my own stillness. To meditate and open my heart and mind to accept the deeper awareness coming to and through me in the softness of this energy. Allowing myself to be - to simply be - and to pay attention to the inner voice gently whispering through my heart.
Life is good and you are loved.
Blessed be,
Lynn
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